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What happens when your writing buddies find out you didn’t make time to plan a project for this November. Short stories that you have to publish. This is an unedited version, but here goes. Be kind with your feedback please!

Imaginary Friends

Where was my Daddy?  The last time he forgot to pick me up from school, I had to wait with a teacher.  He was so mad at me for getting the school involved.  I should just know that he would be there.  That time, I waited an hour before a teacher found me on her way home.  I was sitting on the school steps crying.  That was before, I’m almost a year older now, she thought.  “My tenth birthday is next month, and I hope I get to have a party with cake and everything.  Well, I’ll be happy with just a cake with one candle that I can make a wish on.”

Roanna waited on the steps until everyone was gone.  Every time a teacher opened the door to the building to leave, I ran around the wall and hid behind the big tree.  All the cars are gone from the parking lot now and the janitor locked the gate.  I’m locked in and it’s four o’clock. I think Daddy really did forget me this time.  It’s been two hours.  I’ve done all my homework and finished reading our book for this semester.  There is nothing left for me to do except imagine.  I don’t think playing the imagine game is a good thing right now.  I can imagine a storm, a real one.  Mom said I was silly, that no one can imagine a storm, but I think I really did.

So little Roanna’s thoughts went that day.  She became more frightened the longer she waited for a father that would never come.  He was currently speeding away on the interstate as fast as he could, checking the rear view mirror every so often to avoid getting caught.  His thoughts were on freedom and the sexy new girlfriend sitting next to him with her feet up on the dashboard of the former family car.  He never gave one thought to that little girl who had been crying on and off for the last hour.  The tears she had shed barely dried before new ones spilled from her eyes.

Roanna thought she would find a way off the property and stand by the front gate.  Earlier in the week, she overheard some boys talking about how to break into the school when everyone was gone.  “If the boys can break in, I can break out.” She thought.  She hefted her backpack on and thought better of it.  “This is heavy and I’ve done my homework. It’s a long walk home and I don’t want carry them all the way home”  Roanna made her way to the trashcan outside of the principals window.  “No one uses this can very much and maybe I can find a plastic bag to put my books in.”  Roanna peered into the can and found that the janitor had placed a brand-new bag in it.  Smiling, she pulled the bag out and placed her books inside, carefully folding the bag around her heavy books.  Next, she began searching for a place to stash them and went back to the front of the school to the wall she had used to hide.  She crawled under the brush and pushed the bag into the bush with all the thorns.  Hopefully, the extra wrapping would protect the books.

She made her way to the section of the fence the boys had mentioned.  Part of it was undone at the top, just as they said.  A voice in her head told her to jump up and use gravity to help her. She jumped and grabbed the chain link and swung her body to the side as hard as she could.  The fence barely moved. Again, she thought. Three tries later, she had enough space to squeeze through if she dropped her backpack over first and went sideways.  “You can do it,” she thought.  Roanna felt the pinch of metal against her skin and hoped she wouldn’t get stuck.  Finally, she made it with only scratches where her arm was bare and a drop of blood on the back of her hand.

Ignoring the gap in the fence, she left it and dusted herself off.  Picking up her backpack she looked around, hoping her Daddy would be pulling up to the curb. Her hopes crashed and she felt the tears welling up.  “Don’t you dare give up,” her inside voice said.  She stiffened her spine and began climbing through the landscaping to the street. “Okay, which way is home.  If I go the way Mom and Dad drive me, it will take longer, but I won’t get lost.”  Her inside thoughts told her to start walking the way she knew and look for a shortcut.  “Look confident with your head up, don’t look like a victim.” She did just that with her head held high she stepped out into the crosswalk, headed for home.  She knew that the thoughts were not her own and struggled with the concept.

She was confidently walking home when a dog ran out from between two houses.  She ran from the dog before some boys saw her running and screaming and chased the dog away with sticks and rocks.  Roanna kept on running until she realized that the dog and boys were nowhere to be seen.  She didn’t know where she was.  She was frightened and didn’t know what to do.  Her imaginary friend spoke to her.  His voice was in her head, but it was as real to her as if he was standing in front of her.  He spoke to her with soothing words and begged her not to cry.  That things would be o.k. to look around for a solution.  She should have realized that it was odd that her imaginary friend would use a word like solution, a word that just wasn’t in an eleven-year-old vocabulary.  The voice calmly spoke to her to look for road markers, street signs, businesses, something that she remembered or a place to safely get help.  She began to catalog the street signs out loud and came to a speedy mart on the corner.  It was a bit run down and the windows were all covered by advertisements.  They might let her use a phone to call her mom or dad.  She stepped inside and into the aisle just like her mom taught her when she took the gas money in.  She knew to get in line right away or the cashier wouldn’t help you.  There were three men at the counter.  They looked rough and she instinctively stepped back a little further. She couldn’t see what was taking so long when the cashier held up his hands and his eyes went wide.

Immediately, her inside voice became loud and told her to “Get Out, Get Out Now. Run.” Run she did, straight out the door. “Around the corner, quickly, hide!” She didn’t recognize her own thoughts, but she felt compelled, almost as if a hand was shoving her along. She saw a yard with a low fence and quickly hid behind it.  There was a loud pop, was it a gun? Then the sound of tires screeching.  She was wondering if she should go back and check on the cashier when her thoughts were interrupted by someone.  “No! Absolutely not, you’re a kid for crying out loud, one with a lousy father.” Roanna looked around expecting to see someone she knew.  Maybe it was her imagination and the words were out loud.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t know you could hear my thoughts.” She was frightened, but curious and asked, “Who are you?”

“I’m just a friend who is far away, you can call me Nic.”

“Are you an imaginary friend?” she asked.

“No, but it is easier to explain that way.  If you didn’t have a superior imagination, you wouldn’t be able to hear my thoughts.  I have to concentrate really hard.  If you hadn’t been scared, you probably wouldn’t have heard me.”

“Thank you for helping me.  I think something bad happened at the market.”

“I think so too, but let’s hope for the best that everything was ok and the men got scared and ran away,” Nic said. “You need to find a way home Roanna,” he gently urged.  “I’ll look up all the speedy marts near you, if you know the street names, I can find you on a map,” Nic spoke in a gentle tone that calmed her.

Roanna climbed from her hiding spot and looked around.  “I think I am on Farrell Street and the house number in front of me is 1324 if that helps.”

“That helps a lot, you did great. I’ll just look it up on my computer and see if I can map to you,” Nic said.  “Yep, I’ve got you, now where is home?” he asked.

It seemed so strange to think her own address, but she did it anyway.  “You’re almost two miles from home and it will be getting dark by the time you get there.  If you can walk fast, we can get you back to where you recognize your surroundings. I know you are probably tired, but do you think you can do it?  We can always find someone to call the police to take you home.” Nic said.

“No, no police.  My Dad would be very mad if I had the police called on him.  He drinks sometimes and isn’t reasonable. He doesn’t usually hit me, but he has a mean fast ball and throws things.”

Nicolas was seething and was doing his best to keep his emotions in check.  Roanna didn’t need to deal with his reactions on top of being lost. He hoped he never met her pos father. How could someone hurt a child? He never understood it before, and especially now. Instead, he decided he would walk her home from school. Man, that was old fashioned sounding. His phone was ringing, but he ignored it, afraid to break his concentration and not be able to connect with Roanna again.

He guided her down the streets and found a wide alleyway and encouraged her to walk/run down it. “Don’t slow down, keep your head up. If anyone notices you and looks at you the wrong way, just yell out loud, Hey guys wait for me.”

She laughed and thought it was a good idea.  The shortcut meant she could avoid the main road. They always waited at the red light for a long time to get across. With the shortcut, she didn’t need to cross it and would cut off at least six blocks. Her feet were starting to hurt and in another hour it would start to get dark out.

Roanna grew up knowing she was different.  She had a very active imagination, complete with imaginary friends, or friend as it were.  But, Nic was in a new class. People already looked at her funny when she told one of her fantasy stories.  They would really give her a hard time if she tried to explain what happened today with Nat.

Nicolas was seventeen, six years older than Roanna. But this wasn’t the first time he had connected with her mind. It was the third. This time was different, he wasn’t just an observer trying to sort out her thoughts in a cloud bank. This time, her thoughts were clear and she could feel him. 

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Topper Down!!!!!!

The past month has been super stressful. I love my laptop; it however had a little power issue these last few months. Given its age, usage, and the number of times dropped, I figured it was about time for a new battery. Amazon to the rescue! New battery received and I quickly installed it. Fail, still failed to power up. Next, and should probably have been first, I found my multi-meter and tested the power port. Hmmm, seemed ok. Must be the power cord. Fail again. I couldn’t get the meter leads where they needed to be.

Ben’s Computers to the rescue. That and a paper clip shoved into the power connection so his multi meter could test the power cord. He kept Topper overnight to charge, just in case. I picked up the $65. universal power supply at Wally World, it refused to work, and I couldn’t find a really good fit. I returned the uni power supply and ordered the super-duper kit from, you guessed it, Amazon. Another few days (said in a high-pitched annoying voice) and package was received. Topper was plugged in and after THREE MONTHS, I have connectivity.

Seems silly to jump through these crazy hoops. I love Topper and am not ready to replace him. Besides, I have a backup laptop. I just misplaced the power cord for it. I found the cord the day the uni kit came in the mail.

I’ve been writing from a very young age. I was the kid in grammar school that could always write a small book on how I spent my summer. Not writing is not ok with me. I’ve made certain commitments this year to release my current novel, possibly chapter by chapter. I have everything backed up to an external as well as to the cloud. But a week’s worth of work was on Topper. It is also less than 60 days to NaNoWriMo.

Topper, welcome back. I missed you so!

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Anxious Much?

I was raised by a bitical woman (bitter + critical = bitical).  That explains where I learned to fail so well but it does not explain why, equipped with this knowledge, I can’t seem to shake it off.  I ended the relationships that were so toxic and damaging to me completely when my beloved died and they (plural) saw it as an opportunity to attack me personally when I was at my lowest.  I had all but ended relationships with them before but, without my beloved protector and personal encourager, it was no longer possible to have contact with them.  That is their problem, my problem remains but is different.

I set wonderful goals with appropriate steps to complete them; good time frames and even plan outside influences to create my success.  I have great technical plans and then I fail to follow through until completion.  My big girl pants just don’t seem to stay on as long as I need them to.  I shoot myself in the foot on a regular basis and when I get close to the goal line, I fail to finish.  I have volumes of stories that have never seen the light of day. This blog is the first time I have freely let my words leave without rushing to pull them back and protect them from harm.  It is a learning experience for me and, perhaps because I have so few followers, I’ve been able to let it go and be myself.

NaNoWriMo has been a great experience for me to “turn off my inner editor” which is really a technical writer and the child of bitterness.  Coaching others to complete the 50,000 word count has helped me grow and throw out my inner bitical critic. Seven years as a staff volunteer for the San Francisco Writers Conference has provided me with healing encouragement and hundreds of success stories and relationships with people who are happy to see me when I walk into the room.

To stretch those new confidence muscles even more, I have started my own critique group and am going to submit two short stories for publication in an anthology.  It is not so important that I get accepted for publication as it is I actually submit it.  I sent one of the stories to a beta reader.  Not just any beta reader but, one I consider to be a true American hero.  He served as an Army Ranger and later as an undercover police officer.  He gave much for his country, including the life of his mother when his cover was blown.  He is quiet, humble and extremely smart.  The story deals with PTSD, a subject he is an expert on.  I highly value his opinion.

I sent the story to my friend yesterday at 5:00 p.m. and was awake most of the night.  My anxiety level was sky high.  I expected one of two things; he would read it and politely say little or nothing or attack it with a full offensive.  Neither happened.  The time stamp was 10:27 p.m. the same day and he liked it!  His wife liked it! He gave me 12 suggestions (some I should have caught if I wasn’t so anxious).

It is time for me to succeed!  I have awesome friends and an awesome God!  Now Tessa, let it go and get it done.

Worry for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6

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NaNo Recovery

 

Last night I met up with a teacher friend who was writing a final for her high school students at Denney’s, a local diner.  This was my first public writing effort since November 30th.  I love the National Novel Writing Month each November.  I’m a technical writer and edit as I write. This is great for work but bogs down the novel writing efforts to a crawl.  NaNo has really helped me to “turn off my inner editor” and make real headway on my projects.

The Christmas season is upon us with a whirl of regulatory deadlines, school events and parties.  Last night may be my only effort squeezed into December as the overtime ramps up.  January will be here soon enough and my fellow NaNo’s (or WriMo’s) want to get together for a regular, more casual, event.

Today, I am adding new external links on my employer’s safety website and came across this from the America’s PreparAthon website.  (FEMA) It is my response to the statement I often get from people I fail to understand, “Why would you want to get involved?”

The answer:  https://youtu.be/qBrMU0sLoHQ

http://community.fema.gov/

Keep America strong!

Love those around you and Stay Safe out there!

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Be Thankful – Be Positive

The National Novel Writing Month, affectionately called NaNoWriMo, is in full swing.  Do you NaNo?  I am honored to be the Liaison for my Region.  I take care of small details and set up events for my Region.  We meet together, for those interested, every week.  I’m a sometime coach and general encourager.

This year we have more under 18 writers than last year.  I’ve been surprised at how a small encouraging word makes a big impact.  One author was ready to quit and is now strongly powering on to the finish.  One young adult, barely over 18, made a comment to me in an email.

“I’m behind just a little in my word count but I really want to catch up, this is my last chance to be an author.”

Did you just hear the brakes of my virtual car slam on?  I could swear they did and a 20 car pileup ensued.  I wanted to ask, who has been filling your mind with rubbish but refrained.  My job is to encourage not to solve the issue of world peace or even home peace.

I hope I managed to convince this precious writer that it is not the last chance.  They are writing between 250-500 words in each 10 minute virtual word sprint.  I have reasoned with the writer that if you can write that many words in 10 minutes, why can’t you find a 15 minute chunk of time to write every day.  Hide in the bathroom; write in bed after lights go out.  Write over lunch (I do!).  It’s o.k. to write in public just as it is o.k. to hide your writing in secret.  It is not o.k. to quit on yourself.  Don’t give up your dreams no matter who tells you are not ______ enough.

Jesus only gave us two rules to live by:  Love God, Love Others.  During this Thanksgiving season, do your own personal reality checkup.  Ask yourself:

  1. Do I express my thanks and appreciation to God and others?
  2. Am I kind to myself?
  3. Am I kind to others?
  4. Am I paying too much attention to what others say?
  5. Am I paying attention to my goals and dreams?
  6. Am I thankful?

It is a rare honor to be able to convince someone to believe in themselves and to reach for their personal dreams.  Be so thankful and kind this Thanksgiving that someone will be encouraged because you are alive!  Go change someone’s world for the better; it might be your own.

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Write On!

I made it through the difficult days, from my birthday until my wedding anniversary.  Days in which my beloved is missed dearly. Time to let the grief drift into the background and get back on track and in focus.

I seem to be doing better, at least if word count is an indicator.  October was a haze.  I can’t really say what I was busy with.  My calendar shows some activity but not the hectic pace I felt.  It must have been “the list” accomplishments.  The rest of the defunct patio covering was demolished, winter 2015 yard cleanup, shower caulking (for tile install), stucco repaired and finishing off a 4 month project to install 1,100 sq. ft. of bamboo flooring.  Rub knees, take a deep breath!

Last night, I had a few friends in and we laughed our socks off at Pitch Perfect 2!  Good friends, good food, roaring fire in the fireplace and something to laugh at.  I recommend it highly to improve your sleep patterns.

November is NO-vember.  No to any new projects, requests or pleading.  I have two birthday parties to host for grandchildren (14 and 9).  I am the Municipal Liaison for NaNoWriMo for the county I live in.  I will celebrate Thanksgiving and Thanksgiving visitors.  Last, but not least, is a commitment to myself to write 50,000 words in the month of December for the National Novel Writing Month.  National Novel Writing Month

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2015 N of WD speaker Marissa Meyer

To keep up with the commitment, I must write 1,667 words per day.  I’m a little behind but I’ll catch up.  I missed a few consecutive days but am committing to write every day regardless of how many yeowls the cat makes and squawks the chickens produce.

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Exhausted But Still Writing

July was a good month, writing wise. It was my second attempt at writing 50,000 words in one month this year. I signed up for the April Camp NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and succeeded in writing 30,000 words, that’s 30K more than I would have written with no effort. May and June were busy personal months with my home undergoing repairs, clearing out my beloved’s robotic “scraps” and learning to live without him. July 1 rolled around and I decided to push for that 50K again! I made it! The last 20,000 words look pretty slushy, weak plot flow, and underfed ideas.
But fear not! One of the prizes for achieving the 50K is a very low cost copy of Scrivener software. It has a nice index card or “cork board” feature that will help my major problems. My female protagonist is still an undefined, barely visible ghost of a character. She is not a ghost so this needs some real work. Once I develop more character depth and the plotline flows smoother, I think I might be closer to 80K length and have a respectable novel and then the real editing begins. One of the things I have learned from NaNoWriMo is to turn off the inner editor and just go for it. I am a technical writer during the day so this is an extremely difficult thing for me to do. The bottom line here is that I achieved the 50K!
My birthday is the first of August so I celebrated by going out to dinner and a movie with a friend. I didn’t want a lot of hoopla about my birthday and my friend didn’t know it was my birthday. I really just wanted something very quiet to spend alone with memories of my beloved. I bought one of those cake slices for two, chocolate for my beloved of course, and filled a cut crystal mug with milk. I watched the sun go down from my back patio. The day ended with cake and reflection of wonderful memories. I feel so blessed to have been loved by such an exceptional man and to have loved him in the few short years he had. He believed in me and my writing ability when no one else did. He continues to give me strength because of that belief and love. I am so glad that he had a personal relationship with Jesus and I will see him again with my other treasures in heaven.
Now, on to my next writing goal. A new idea, a new book, 50,000 more words and the November official National Novel Writing Month. I am fundraising to attend the Night of Writing Dangerously at the Julia Morgan Ballroom in San Francisco’s Financial District. The theme is film noir and costume is not required but oh so appreciated. A successful November will mean I have written well over 130,000 words this year for myself. 🙂
If you would like to help send me to a full night of writing…. http://www.stayclassy.org/TessaBertoldi Investing in myself is something I am still getting used to.

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Let the Writing Begin!

Mark HopkinsI am still pushing through the extreme lack of energy after being ill. But, there is one event I would not want to miss. It’s time for the annual San Francisco Writer’s Conference, I understand there are only about 50 slots left.
This year NoViolet Bulawayo (We Need New Names), Julie Kagawa (The Iron Fey series), Rhys Bowen, (Molly Murphy Mysteries), Barry Eisler (Rain/Treven series), Chitra Divakaruni (Mistress of Spices) and Dan Millman (Peaceful Warrior) will be Featured Speakers. The director’s are all wonderful but Michael Larsen always has the most energy and punniest jokes.  In addition, over 100 other authors, agents, editors and publishers will be there. Many favorites will be back as well. The conference asks attendees to review the event and the contributors that earn great reviews are often asked back.

The InterContinental Mark Hopkins is a grand dame that sits on top of San Francisco’s Nob Hill. It was built on the site of the original Mark Hopkins mansion which survived the 1906 earthquake, but not the three day fire that ravaged the city afterwards. Lovers from around the world travel to the Top of the Mark lounge to view the city through its glass walls, my parents included!

I will be at the SFO Writer’s Conference as part of the volunteer staff. SFO is the city of my birth and a short drive in for me. I can’t decide if I want to check-in to the hotel or drive in each day. I’ve posted for either a roommate or a car pooler, we will see what happens.

This event always gets my writing flowing and energizes me. I’m especially excited this year because I have asked to staff Grant Faulkner‘s session. Grant is the executive director of the National Novel Writing Month and the founding editor of 100 Word Story. I attended the “Night of Writing Dangerously” this year at the beautiful Julia Morgan Ballroom. Can you say, “I NaNoWriMo?”

Check it out! SFWriters.org This year the conference is bigger than ever.  Please check back for a post after the President’s Weekend event.

 

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